It is Madness..

that mad rush of emotions,

that stupid thought to write every single thing and 'blog' it,

that second thought to realise it indeed is a stupid thing to write about, after all you are supposed to have moved on,

that warm feeling inside, of some old memories, still not butchered with whatever happened later,

the question of why i am wrting all this,

ok...

mr. gone forever, when you say 'bye forever', please mean it.

'bye forever' on oct 23rd, shouldnt mean 'it is madness' on oct 27th.

well, you guys are not supposed to understand what is the context of the above sentence. the whole idea is crazy and emotions are indeed stupid. they make you do crazy things, which either make you laugh at yourself or make you feel dead embarassed. this has gotta stop. i dont know how many more blog posts will get wasted/utilized on this topic before this thing is completely out of my mind..

atleast now i can say that strong emotions like love,anger,hatred are all gone or have almost faded.. all that remains is a process of acknowledging the emotions which come and go, that flickering flame before it goes off completely.

i am happy 'time' has almost completed the healing process.. i am happy i took it all very positively.. i am happy that i am creating reasons for me to be proud of.. i am happy that i am going beyond my comfort zone/hiding zone.. i am out in the sun and am ready to accept the rain/shine.

just feels like quoting the great kareena kapoor from 'jab we met' -- "haan, main apni favorite hoon!!"

Words are just not enough sometimes..

kai baar lafz kam pad jaate hain...

badal do mere gam ki taareekh ko..

ab khushiyon ka mausam hai..

ab baarish mein dil nahi royega..

ab patjhad mein nahi hoga akelapan..

ab badlenge mausam ke maayne..

maine khud ko jo paaya hai..

duniya paayi hai..

'SAM'usic !!

in the night sky,

drops of music,

flying from the ground,

to become stars..

in the night sky,

the music,

becomes a person,

talking to me,

listening to me..

the moon and i,

watching over,

the creation,

of music profound..

wide eyed,

with a thousand dreams,

and the music in my eyes..

the stars hummed the tunes,

the breeze sang along,

i closed my eyes,

just the music and me..

strange how it makes you,

meet your 'self'..

this music..

hey music,

just stay,

i'll never let you go,

you make me, me,

you let me be..

in the night sky,

i am one in a million,

and you make me so,

so don't go..

the music and i,

together, forever !!

p.s. these lines go out to the entire team of 'swarnabhoomi academy of music' for making the night come alive !! thank you !!