Love is.........Ugly!

love leaves you sleepless,

restless, helpless,

and then when it doesnt work out,

it leaves you blackmailed,

it leaves you tortured,

it leaves you threatened,

of acid on your face,

it leaves you strangled,

hanging from the fan,

it leaves your wrist bleeding,

it leaves you lying bruised and raped,

in a jungle or on an abandoned road side,

it leaves you unprotected and unpopular,

it leaves you on facebook,

as a status message,laughing at you,

it leaves you alive but more dead,

with every second,

it leaves you ashamed and embarassed,

in front of everyone you know,

it leaves you in a very sad state of mind,

it leaves repenting every second,

you wish you had never loved,

never knew this deception,

this lie.....

p.s. today love leaves you ugly. we all know about the positives of being in love but there is another side of the coin too. love, no one is stopping you, infact when love strikes no one can stop you, not even yourself. but just be careful. take your decisions in a calm state of mind. keep a confidant. keep someone informed of your steps so that you can be rescued before things get out of hand. love is important and you cannot escape from its charm. but just remember, what's more important is you and your well - being. take care!

AAS - A Beginning

you must be thinking why this new name? (not that 'you' is quite a number who cares, but still). well, this is just to depict that i am getting back to some serious blogging/writing/expressing/sharing and nurturing my dreams. writing is therapeutic and it does wonders to oneself. a thousand things are going through my head right now but i am going to tackle one thing at a time. so now onwards, there will be regular posts, genuine thoughts and umpteen expressions.

not that i remember this one correctly, but just to sum up the entire hurricane inside my brain - "hum akele hi chale the jaanib-e-manzil magar, humsafar milte gaye aur kaarwaan banta gaya"

that's it for now. this should help me sleep :)

Speak Up!

the thing is that if you dont speak up, you will always be taken for granted. there is just one life you get in this game that we are living. by no means will you get 'quit' 'play again' options. live it the way you want to. there can not be anything worse than letting it all go and then repenting in the last minute and by last minute i really mean the last breath. stop letting everyone take you for a ride. maximum, you will fall but you will learn. so what if you made mistakes, it doesnt mean you will have to surrender and just become a part of the crowd, forgetting 'yourself'. smile inside. show some faith on yourself. tell yourself as many times as possible 'i trust you'.

p.s. go ahead, girl!

There is Light......

he gives you a new day, everyday! €the waves of time erase the pain from the sand of your life. it brings some beautiful shells to the shore. the sand tickles your toes and you can't help but smile, because is no time, the sun rises and there is light.

p.s. its been 8 days since i had junk food and i have started working out from yesterday .

A Quick Post

my birthday is tomorrow and my birthday resolution is 'no junk food' and 'never to talk to the bitch'!!

Disappointed with Myself!

like i told in the previous post, i would go out and check my weight but i didnt. i slept off in the afternoon and kept procastinating till now. now it is late evening and i dont feel like going out. to add more to this sad story i have ordered chicken biryani and chilly chicken. the only thing i did relavant to my goal is to keep a step in my room to do step exercises. all in all, i am very disappointed with myself :( . and this 'dhunk dhunki' katrina slimness on tv is making me want to cry! :(

The First Step

ok as there couldnt be a better title to this post. well, the purpose behind starting this blog is a dream that one day this blog will be one day called 'the regular slim girl blog'. if you are a philosopher reading this and cant stop yourself from saying that 'my child, you are beautiful the way god created you' - to that i would say i like it better when i am slim. (i have become recently so this is an emotional as well as physical trauma) i have to lose this weight and i hope the writing and all helps me.

so, the journey towards losing weight starts today (its technically 2:00 am) and the first step is to take my weight. next post hopefully would beging with my actual weight or my excuse for not being able to go out to take my weight, whatever suits me.

alright this post ends here and yes, this blog will not have any capital letters because i am blogging from my blackberry and somehow i am not able to get any capital letters here.

goodnight everyone and yeah, i'd like to have some followers for this blog alright?