Wednesday 23 November 2011

It is Madness..

that mad rush of emotions,
that stupid thought to write every single thing and 'blog' it,
that second thought to realise it indeed is a stupid thing to write about, after all you are supposed to have moved on,
that warm feeling inside, of some old memories, still not butchered with whatever happened later,
the question of why i am wrting all this,
ok...
mr. gone forever, when you say 'bye forever', please mean it.
'bye forever' on oct 23rd, shouldnt mean 'it is madness' on oct 27th.
well, you guys are not supposed to understand what is the context of the above sentence. the whole idea is crazy and emotions are indeed stupid. they make you do crazy things, which either make you laugh at yourself or make you feel dead embarassed. this has gotta stop. i dont know how many more blog posts will get wasted/utilized on this topic before this thing is completely out of my mind..
atleast now i can say that strong emotions like love,anger,hatred are all gone or have almost faded.. all that remains is a process of acknowledging the emotions which come and go, that flickering flame before it goes off completely.
i am happy 'time' has almost completed the healing process.. i am happy i took it all very positively.. i am happy that i am creating reasons for me to be proud of.. i am happy that i am going beyond my comfort zone/hiding zone.. i am out in the sun and am ready to accept the rain/shine.
just feels like quoting the great kareena kapoor from 'jab we met' -- "haan, main apni favorite hoon!!"

7 comments:

Savvy said...

Offsetting with a question, how can one define madness ? Is it merely a legal insanity or seriously unrestrained excitement? Well, the answer is located in succeeding lines.

The bigger question is, can we convey incisively what we think every time ? Author has minutely elaborated all the expositions of mind it seems. Expression wise positing of thoughts, that too with dedicating respect to the most important factor, time, is anything but lunacy.

Concluding split is full of delight and is a treat to scan. The terminal line would be from author's again.. Yes, you have risen up .. Keep shining ..

Aparna Gautam said...

Wow!! You make writing my heart out, even more worth it!! :)

peter said...

You are so mysterious that you appear from nowhere just to drop a "hi" and to disappear again x-(
what's wrong with you :( ?
anyway welcome back Once again :D, i hope u stay a bit longer this time and watever happened to ur twitter id :-/
get yourself back on the track, u have a huge fan following, I know :P

Aparna Gautam said...

Peter :) I am on twitter @SunSandRain. And thank youuuuuu sooooooo much for stopping by!!! I don't know how many times I will go but I know that I will always come back find my buddies!! :)

Dhanya said...

Welcome back :) Of course I remember you. Make sure to stay this time ! By the looks of it, you are happy with your current phase and seems to have moved on from something in a positive manner. Good to see. Keep up the high spirits!

Aparna Gautam said...

Hey Dhanya so good to see you stop by :) big hug!

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