Statutory Warning: Negative splurges ahead. Reader's discretion is advised.
Everyone is familiar with the vent spree I went on few days ago. I got messages, calls from so many of you. A lot of long lost friends got back in touch just to check if I was ok or if there is anything they can do to make me ok. Aww.. See this doesnt happen often. I am someone who goes to bed every night thinking, 'where are my friends?'.
Where are the ones who used to hang out with me? The ones I used to fight mom for..
"I need to go on that trip mumma! I dont care if it is expensive.
I want to go. All my friends are going."
Where are the ones who I used to lie for...just so that I get to be with them more?
"Mumma, if I don't go for this group study, I fail. I will definitely fail the exam."
Where are the ones who I used to go on long bike/car rides with? Where is the 'gedi' gang?
"Chaat, paanipuri, aalu tikki, rain, breeze, giggles, Jazzy B on the car audio, laughter"
Where are the ones who stood by me when I was low?
"Break ups, fights, tough times, ill-health, rain or shine"
Where are the ones......
Wait.. see I cant think of many things... I have always been this bird... flying from one shore to another..season after season..no long memories...no long stories (or probably too many)... but then..
look at me all grown up..with responsibilities and duties to fulfill..professionally and personally..still wondering sometimes..'Where are my friends?'
So when so many of you got back in touch.. I kind of didn't know what to do. What to share and what not to.. there is just so much to catch up on.. How will you understand what happened today when you were not there yesterday? How will you know the rain if you didnt understand the reason behind it?
I don't know how to be a friend.. I have never known.. I would never know.. For a simple reason I have never had a long time friend..or friends.. Just drizzles of emotions from people around me once in a while... at least that's how I look at it..
Where is that strong pillar or the shoulder to lean on or the 'I am here for you always' pat they define a friend with? Where is it? It is no where...
927 'Friends' on my Facebook list...
*smiles*
"Neha, these friendships disappear as time passes by. Don't run behind them like a shadow. Focus on your goal. You can be your biggest friend and your biggest enemy. You choose.", he said. She squirmed and replied sternly, "Dad, you just don't understand me. You don't understand your own daughter!!" He smiled, "Time will answer this for you."
Ciao!
Aparna
Everyone is familiar with the vent spree I went on few days ago. I got messages, calls from so many of you. A lot of long lost friends got back in touch just to check if I was ok or if there is anything they can do to make me ok. Aww.. See this doesnt happen often. I am someone who goes to bed every night thinking, 'where are my friends?'. Where are the ones who used to hang out with me? The ones I used to fight mom for..
"I need to go on that trip mumma! I dont care if it is expensive.
I want to go. All my friends are going."
Where are the ones who I used to lie for...just so that I get to be with them more?
"Mumma, if I don't go for this group study, I fail. I will definitely fail the exam."
Where are the ones who I used to go on long bike/car rides with? Where is the 'gedi' gang?
"Chaat, paanipuri, aalu tikki, rain, breeze, giggles, Jazzy B on the car audio, laughter"
Where are the ones who stood by me when I was low?
"Break ups, fights, tough times, ill-health, rain or shine"
Where are the ones......
Wait.. see I cant think of many things... I have always been this bird... flying from one shore to another..season after season..no long memories...no long stories (or probably too many)... but then..
look at me all grown up..with responsibilities and duties to fulfill..professionally and personally..still wondering sometimes..'Where are my friends?'
So when so many of you got back in touch.. I kind of didn't know what to do. What to share and what not to.. there is just so much to catch up on.. How will you understand what happened today when you were not there yesterday? How will you know the rain if you didnt understand the reason behind it?
I don't know how to be a friend.. I have never known.. I would never know.. For a simple reason I have never had a long time friend..or friends.. Just drizzles of emotions from people around me once in a while... at least that's how I look at it..
Where is that strong pillar or the shoulder to lean on or the 'I am here for you always' pat they define a friend with? Where is it? It is no where...
927 'Friends' on my Facebook list...
*smiles*
"Neha, these friendships disappear as time passes by. Don't run behind them like a shadow. Focus on your goal. You can be your biggest friend and your biggest enemy. You choose.", he said. She squirmed and replied sternly, "Dad, you just don't understand me. You don't understand your own daughter!!" He smiled, "Time will answer this for you."
Ciao!
Aparna
1 comment:
for one time - I disagree!
friends would always be there, some would pester you to open up; others would just wait give you time and space so that you open up when you are ready. that doesnt mean that they aint there, that doesnt mean that they dont care and that definitely doesnt mean that they have moved on.
you just have to open your eyes, give a warm hug and start talking over a coffee. No history required, no flash backs or catching up required.
you would have lost none if you really had friends, and for one - I can count myself, youve not lost me.
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