Friday 12 October 2012

Much Needed Rant..

Too many thoughts flowing in for me to write well. It is amazing how easy it is for people to judge others, to decide whether to respect them or not, whether they are worth the emotions or not. We choose. We decide. We decide that he/she is the one and then we do everything to bring the stars down for them or to be precise, make them sit on the moon. But does it remain like that throughout? No! Can we blame someone for the fact that this fantasy can't go on forever? Definitely Not! It is not too late when the true nature sets in and everything turns upside down. Be it insecurity, bad temperament or just pure selfishness!! It is bound to make the two of you fall flat on your back on a very rocky surface!
 
Worst part is you cant ask questions. Because you knew the plus and you were aware of the minus too, inspite of the fact that the other one tried to cover it and place only the best side on display. You crib. You breathe heavy. You wonder whether you were right in choosing each other. You dont want to adjust. You do not want to consider how the other person feels. Sympathy is a far cry but you are not even ready to empathise. What happens then? What do you do? It might be just one of those agreements but is your soul regretting or consoling you that this too shall pass. What is happening? Where is this going? Was loneliness more painful or this togetherness is hurting more? Was it fair to live in the intoxication of hell or this courtroom kind of life is better where judgements are passed every single day? You justify and then you wonder what the hell brings you to this questioning every second. You ignore and you are accused of being defensive which implies that you are guilty. Guilty of what? Well, God only knows!
 
My only concern is if you cant accept each other as you are, you will make your life hell. Life anyways is going to act like a bitch. Karma will also give you a taste of your own medicine every now and then. The last thing you would want is adjustment issues. Be together. Deal with the problems together. Help each other understand. Dont judge. Smile! Love! Act Cute. See the cuteness in each other's child like nature. Dream! There is so much to life than trying to crib over things which are beyond our control.
 
Okay the agove paragraph might feel totally unrealistic sometimes where all you want is to kill each other because you cant tolerate each other for one more second. That's the time you feel that you are choking on your own emotions and all that you have done for the happiness of your special someone. At a time like this I would suggest:
 
1. Cut yourself off from everything outside even her/him.
2. Sit alone and talk to yourself.
3. Write if that makes you feel better
4. Listen to your (both of your's) favorite songs. Songs which remind you of all the good times.
5. I know by now you are already missing them.
6. Switch on your phone. (you switched it off according to step 1)
7. Wait for him to call you. (he loves you, he will call you)
8. You have already forgotten everything bad I know.
9. Smile
10. Be glad you are together. Thank God.
 
 
Smiles and Sunshine
The Pink Orchid
 
P.S. I am switching my phone on now. Will he call?

2 comments:

provoqd said...

Lovely post Aparna :)
I could identify with the 2nd and 4th statements :)
Keep posting :)

Regards

Jay
http://road-to-sanitarium.blogspot.in/

Aparna Gautam said...

thank you Jay!