Midnight Rambling Continued

Ahhh the endless thinking train in the nights. Okay so what I was thinking is that my life doesn't make any sense right now. It's a complete chaos. Physically, mentally, emotionally, this-ly, that-ly. But what I'm also thinking is why am I holding my breath and waiting for things to get fine so that I can start living after that. Well..things they say take their own sweet time to get sorted. So now that this time that I have in my hand which in fact I have earned needs to be given full justice. What's the best use of this time? I will let the answer ring in my head for sometime.

And yes one big learning of the day. Commitment needs to be a two-way street.(be it any commitment -  professional/ personal) Always! If it's not then well..we all know what to do.

And yes I have not ranted about a particular soul ever but I need to. Baby, you have few faces and I have seen it all. Hope things get real for you soon and everything boils down to you being a one-sweet-faced person. Good luck!

Midnight Rambling

When was the last time I ranted pointlessly? I am wondering what's with me keeping myself last in my list of priorities. Though it looks like I top the list but I don't. Need to give that some serious thinking and make some changes around here. I can't save anyone if I don't save myself. My peace my happiness that way is utmost priority. Inner peace. Where are you?

She Prays..

It was a word
A mere word
Lent to her
For few minutes
She lived a lot of her dreams in it
Built few hopes on it
Smiled from within and gleamed
A word that had a promise
A promise of forever.

Though the truth is
She can't hold him or
Tie him to his heart or
Etch him in her soul
She can just burn inside
Ache for his attention
Starve for his warmth

Though the truth is
She will have to trust
That he will strive, succeed, shine
But at the end of the day
When he is drained out
He will zone out and be restless
He will look for her
He won't rest until her fingers are entwined in his.
He won't stop until her eyes shadow his

Though the truth is
That this may be her reality
Until her last breath
This may be her last hope of happiness
Or this may be her dream come true
Or this may be an illusion
Temporary and illusive

Though the truth is
That she can't lose hope
She can't let her heart lose and her mind win
She can't let go
She can't forget that destiny is strong but
Time is stronger
She can't stop being worried
About being out of mind
If out of sight

Though the truth is
That every night when she closes her eyes
she prays for this to be her forever
Somehow
Please.

Of New Beginnings

So I have not posted from so long. Last one was in December 2015. But has a lot changed since then. Well, of course. It is my life. It has never been static or saturated. The latest happening is mum's health. I hope for her to recover soon. Until then I am being the superhero, super daughter and super mum at home. 

Workwise, not much can be said on this platform or right now. But definitely loads is in store. Huge plans, self belief and dedication is being created for a recipe of achievement. Long due. But now is the time. 

About pouring few words from the heart?

My heart and mind are being a roller coaster, 
Like they have always been..
Life has been racing against itself..
Need to find that core to hold and stay on..