My 2015 was a lot of things. An FB post would definitely not suffice. I would want to relive some of those moments while I type away.. Please bear with me..
In 2015...
1. The screen in front of me blurred a lot of times while I typed. The keyboard got fed salty droplets, while my laptop wondered what's wrong.
2. I laughed a lot. I laughed so much that my stomach hurt. 27% of the times I was genuinely happy.
3. My sky fell short as the days went by. The sky that I got had all clouds. The earth that I got was nothing but a fallow land.
4. I genuinely picked books this year. I pledged to learn..to polish my skills..to become a better version of me. I'm still going strong.
5. I made few promises. Lived some. Broke some.
6. I gave in to the spur of the moment. I behaved immaturely more than once. Definitely not something that I am proud of.
7. I went back to my roots. The songs of the soil will always be cherished.
8. I built many illusions. Its as if you feel that you own the world but you may not have solid ground under your feet. Illusions. Yes, many of them.
9. I caused hurt and pain to few dear ones. I will remember the knot after tying two parts of a broken thread. I will remember to not fall prey again to strong temporary illogical beliefs.
10. I sat alone by the quiet river. Life is a weird thing. The more you run from it the more it engulfs you in it. I ran. Ran from myself, from the unpleasant, from the negative, from the undesirable..and stopped by this river. My reflection flickered in the water as I bent to quench my thirst. I slipped. I fell. I drowned. Now I don't run anymore.
11. I got wounds but healed too. I'm ready to wither more as I stand firm on my feet.
12. I got hit by the ocean waves and got bruised. But funny how the warm salty water of the sea doesn't let you go home injured. The sand provides you shelter. This year I fell in love with the ocean again.
13. I saw rain. Lots of it. Hopes, lives, future floating, rotting in neck deep water. But then the clouds parted to give way to the Sun. The rays shone through.
In 2015, I continued to be my complex self. I may want to go back and change few things and I may also want to go back relive few things.
55 minutes more to go before the new year rings in. I'm planning to live each day as it comes and make the most of each moment.
Happy new year !!
2 comments:
Coming here after such a long time, but it does feel like coming back to a place well known..
Kajal, I wish the last but one line be true for you today, tomorrow and for all the days to come. May the smile stay and this time may that be for more genuine reasons.. May you have your friends with you, now and always.. i feel friends make the best supporting pillars in life.. May you regain the strength to trust them again and to share your pain.. May the best happen to you in 2016 and years to come..
Lovely! I follow you for a while now on twitter (@thedehaati) never knew we had another ghosh among us :-)
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