Monthly Updates.. Hardly... Sigh..

Can not believe the blog which was created to have daily blog updates is not even getting monthly updates. Sigh! What do I blame it on? Laziness! Maybe.. No thoughts or stories to share. This cant be the reason as my brain still thankfully continues to overwork and is capable of drawing smokey flames like an overworked machine. Also like every action has an equal and opposite reaction, the readership has gone down, IndiRank is on its all time low, I dont stand a chance in a million years to get nominated for any of the blog awards which I was quite frequently enlisted for in the last phase of my blogging. But anyways, no point regretting on what has happened. Also no point making promises when you know there are strong chances of you not becoming regular here anytime soon. But that doesnt take away from the fact that I am loving scribbling here. 

In a very very short while we will have the youngest brat in the family. Cant wait to hold the bundle of joy in my arms. Am I scared? Of course. Without a single fragment of doubt. Heart beats faster every time I think of the pain, the needles, nurses, doctors, etc etc but then all of it vanishes when I think of those flower petal like hands and feet, those tiny eyes.. I can go on and on. In these times I cant even get myself to think of anything else.

Workwise, well, the long leave continues and I am sure this time (free time ;) is never coming back so I would want to make the most of it. Though the last month has gone by taking care of health, foodwise, insulin-wise, doctor-visit wise. With Mr. Husband, fortunately, walking with me every step of the way, things have not been all that tough. 

Currently reading "The Goal" by Mr Eliyahu M Goldratt and I must say its a page turner. I would recommend it to all the management professionals/students/aspirants. The book will make you feel the heat of it all. Management is not just a fancy word. Read this one to know more.

Okay time to stop typing but before I say bye here is something I would like all of you to visit and like it if you love it. https://www.facebook.com/kaysrasoi ----> Hubby Dearest's Yummazing Recipes Page. This one offers easy recipes which will make you drool and want to learn more and cook more. 

Until next time

Smiles and Sunshine

The Pink Orchid

Mom-To-Be and Worried

Funny how I always turn to my blog when I am going through strange times. Right now with a 100 things that I want to write about, one stupid toolbar is blocking 5% view of this page. Well, that is that least of the things I am concerned about but still it does irritate you when you are already sort of bogged down. 

Okay first things first. The baby is due in a couple of months and to hell's glory I have been diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes. So things that were seeming quite normal till date are suddenly painted with grey fear of "complications". The doctor left no stone unturned to scare me out of my wits about what all could happen if I do not take proper medication and follow the 'correct' diet. I am scared. This thing doesnt go off my mind even for a fraction of a second. Have I unknowingly done something wrong to the baby? Will everything be normal? Am I proving to be a bad mother already? Is the baby inside me hating me? A lot of questions keep haunting me day in day out. Maternity leave has started so one does have a lot of free time. Not sure if the decision of taking maternity leave a little early was a good idea or a rushed one. But anyways I have already applied so I better do what would-be-moms do at this stage. Be healthy. Listen to the doctor. And remain happy as much as possible, even more. 

Hubby dearest is really kind and being his supportive self. He literally calmed me down after I met the doctor and she gave me the above mentioned updated. He can take care of me. I can see that and I am happy to see he cares about every tiny detail related to me and the baby. I am proud of him. Lol with this para right here this post doesnt look so depressing. Isnt it? Anyways with a husband like that life's problems dont seem like they are such a big deal. 

Also not to forget I am reading a lot and the more I read the more I feel it is such a healthy habit. Reading can help restore my sanity otherwise I can get really stressed with the latest developments. I will come back with more updates when I visit the doctor on monday, 17th June. 

Did I tell you that mom, dad and sister are coming down this friday. Yes yes!! this friday!! I am super excited. Mom is coming down after 1 year and few months. It will be such a delight to see her here everyday. It'll definitely relax me more. I hope sis and I dont fight on anything. I hope we are grown up enough and if we do I still hope mom can handle our fights like earlier days when we were kids. Lol it will be embarassing if my husband sees me fighting with sis like that. *giggles*.

It is getting to be a long post. I think I should give it a rest now. It does seem like I will be here more often but that's what I say everytime I blog. Isnt it? 

Anyways, until the next storm of emotions sets in,

Keep Shining,

Lots of Smiles,

The Pink Orchid

Doubts Galore...

Sometimes in the middle of the thinking process, certain extremely painful thoughts crop in. What if the people we consider friends and rely on so much, decide not to be there when we need them? What if all the trust that we are putting in a relationship is ultimately proved to be a mirage? What if we lose out in the competition? What if we never realise who we are competing against? What if the dreams do not come true? What if we get tired and give up in between?

There are no answers to these questions, since future is predominantly unknown. Positive thinking is the key. All the ships in the ocean would reach their destination - that is hope. Reality is we just got to sail in our own ship and leave the rest on time. Life is only fair.

Until next time
The Pink Orchid

Irritated !!

Not having a good night's sleep, can make your day as screwed up as hell. Right now I am feeling completely drained of energy with no clue as to how I could get back to smiling. If left to it I dont even have the energy to talk today, or utter a single word to be precise. Not to forget, the stress and irritability that comes as a part of the package.

If the question is "Why did I not sleep properly?". Well I would blame that to the side-effects of preparing myself to welcome a new member into the family shortly. (Not going into the details, as there are at least a million books talking about the symptoms.)Yes, yes, I can't blame anyone and nor can anyone blame me if I do not come across as my cheerful self today.

Not looking forward to this day at all and I know that I am going to drag myself through it. Or may be as the day progresses, the zeal of life might be re-ensured into me. Ok Ok I know I am sounding extremely dramatic and I should shut-up now.

The Contentment

And another day has come to an end. The day was tiring no doubt. Office not that much but then cleaning the house, doing the dishes. Won't say that hubby dearest doesn't help. He cooked dinner for both of us. Only he has this capability of being sweetest sometimes and meanest some other times. But being tired helps. Nothing like breathing in a clean house with shining floors. Feels so fresh!! After all its my home and I should be taking care of it. If not me then who else will? Eyes are definitely feeling heavy. It was a beautiful holi and I'm going to bed with a feeling of content. Phew!

Scribbling Away...

I am staring at the letters and not sure of what to type I guess. Funny how I could have written about so much all this while but never got around to it. Reason? Well, things might not sound so exciting or even if they do they might not feel "right". Getting to be a mother in a few months and the journey so far has been a bumpy ride. Mood swings, fatigue, hunger and loss of appetite, or just being uneasy and not to forget all the lecture and free advice one can come across at this stage. But when it comes to "understanding" what I am in to, well, that doesn't seem like anybody's cup of tea. I too am scared of talking about my difficulties all the time, I'm scared of being labelled as annoying. But then I won't say that I don't miss a hand on my forehead, a sympathetic ear, a comforting hug, some patience that shows that "yes I understand, you weren't always like this. I understand your hormones are playing up a little bit. I then feel that even if all of this was available when ever I'm falling short of it, I might still be shedding tears about something else. I don't mean to call myself over-sensitive. I just mean to say that life is tough no doubt but I don't have to push myself to the edge all the time. I mean its ok to get upset, feel bad once in a while as long as I'm able to pull myself back up again. To top it all I can hear a baby crying somewhere. Not for long. Soon enough I'll have one crying, lying next to me and throwing all sorts of tantrums which will make me go "crazier". Anyways, scribbling helps. Sigh...

The For-grantedness!!

How sometimes one loses patience and remembers that this is the maximum they can take?
I have been ignorant and selfish while growing up. Now why am I saying that? It's because now I understand how someone who is being selfless and is always being there for you, shouldn't be taken advantage of. I don't know if I am making sense but I had to rant this out. I hope things get better and inner peace prevails.